All I Could Think of was You

Free thought musings…

When our lives are threatened, we often think about our loved ones before we think of ourselves. How fleeting is life, but also, love can be fleeting too.

all i could think ofWhen my mortality was in question, and I went into emergency open heart surgery aortic valve replacement redo, I felt myself desperately clinging emotionally to my partner.

My future was unknown. I might not wake up after the procedure. I might be gone in six months. I don’t know what will happen.

When the heart is sick, love becomes more important. Desperately vital.

The word I keep thinking of is desperate.

Recovery comes and goes. There is an urgency to life. There is an urgency to everything. The mind is clouded with this urgent feeling. I must accomplish something before I die.

I must leave the world better than I found it, but do I have the time?

We must relax, do not fear death, do not rush through life, do not be hasty, let love come and let love go.

Hopefully we are always improving ourselves, however your heart surgery does not define who you are.

One thought on “All I Could Think of was You

  1. mary beth

    Best wishes for your continued recovery – I have BAV and had a replacement on January 20th after finding out about the problem 4 months earlier. My replacement is from a cow so I do not have to do the Coumadin (rat poison) regime. My dentist has me take antibiotics prior to dental cleanings.

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