Live Fully Now

z0auawqqI’ve been on an Alan Watts kick lately. There are endless YouTube videos of his lectures in which he imparts his wisdom and gift of words upon us. Here is a short (3 minutes) clip of one of his talks where he discusses the importance of living fully now, in this moment.

As heart surgery patients, the reality of our own mortality is thrust upon us. This becomes clear in the days leading up to the surgery. The fear can be crippling. After a successful surgery & recovery, that fear lingers. We are afraid so we worry about potentially dying one day. No amount of worry will prolong the arrival of death! In fact, the stress could possibly make it happen sooner.

I’ve made one mistake over and over, especially after my heart surgeries. Because of this near death experience, I have it in my mind that I need to do something greater with my life. There really isn’t anything wrong with that, except that it has become a desperate and flailing search. By constantly planning or deciding things that I should do to improve my life, I am forgetting to enjoy my life, now. There is no future, only now.

Watch The video below.


8 thoughts on “Live Fully Now

  1. Rob

    Thanks for sharing this. Agree it’s important to live in the present and make the most of every day. My perspective in life also changed following heart surgery.
    That said, worry and anxiety are not helpful to you. Going into the surgery I knew that the mortality rate was only 0.2%. I got my affairs in order, but was confident I’d be ok. My surgeon told me they see people every day with mechanical heart valves that have lasted forty years. They also have people who’ve had their heart valve replaced five times and are doing well (I wouldn’t want to be in that group).
    I just want to be super careful to avoid a problem. Something can still go wrong, but I’m trying to maximize the probability that they don’t. I appreciate the sharing of experiences on these blogs because I learn so much from them.

  2. Dan

    Question –
    How hard do you workout with this mechanical valve? What is the highest heart rate you are comfortable pushing yourself to? Are you comfortable when working out hard? Did you doctor put any restrictions on you?

    1. Anthony DiLemme Post author


      This question will be different for everyone. At first, after my surgery I would monitor my heart rate and not let it get above 140bpm while exercising. That lasted for about 3 months. After that, I felt fine, and I let go of monitoring it and I do not even think about how high it gets.

  3. ash

    how do you travel to international vacations with a on-x valve and manage INR and coumadin ? is a world tour possible with coumadin ?

    1. Anthony DiLemme Post author

      This is a good question! I think travel would not be a big deal. I would just stock up on your coumadin, keep it dry and protected and always with you. Do not check it in checked luggage; keep it in your carry on bags. Along with that, you need a home test kit and enough test strips to last you the trip. If the trip is 2-3 weeks or less, then testing on the go is probably not necessary. You could just test before you left, and right when you get back. I’m not a doctor, so double check what I said with your cardiologist.

      1. ash

        Thanks so much for your reply..personally have you faced problems with vacations ? also part of the vacation package is diet changes…Have you had to adjust doses when you changed diet ?

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