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Tell me how it is, Doc.

“You’re heart is abnormally big,” Dr. Yun said,  “and it leaks allot.”

“Mmhm,” I say, waiting for the punchline.

Dr. Yun paused for five seconds, perhaps to highlight the importance of his next statement, “Ultimately, You’re heart is going to fail.”

“When it’s going to happen, we do not know.”

Until this moment, in my everyday life, my attitude toward this whole ordeal was that of desperate denial. Finally, upon meeting with my new surgeon was it clear to my thick skull that I would require open heart surgery on my 30th year. Even toward the end of the 45 minute long meeting, I still tried to buy myself some more time.

“Umm, I guess I’m still confused about what to do,” I lied.

The surgeon said, “Why are you still confused? You wanted options and I gave you options.”

We chuckled and I knew what he meant, but what I wanted was a direct command from him. I asked him if he were in my shoes, when would he opt for surgery.

“Soon,” He said, plain and simple.

So there it was. He explained that because I was leaning toward a mechanical valve, there was no reason to wait for the operation. Mechanical valves last your whole life, so re-operation at any point would be a minimal risk. This is why I chose a mechanical valve, because I did not like the idea of getting a re-operation on a tissue valve in 9-13 years.

We look up to doctors as authorities on the human body, however they do not control your body. You are the master of your own domain, and you must make these difficult decisions yourself. I knew what I had to do. I scheduled my operation.

Prompt: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/16/writing-challenge-dialogue/

 

Warm-heartedness for Healthy Mind, Healthy Body

The internet is full of rants. Perhaps this will help tip the balance.

I’m thankful for my health. You heard me. Despite the fact that I need major surgery, everything else is working swimmingly. This will help my recovery, I hope.

His Holiness, the Dalai Lama discusses how fear and anger are connected, and how these feelings can affect the physical body. I have been aware of this for the past few years, and it has been an ongoing process to improve. One should not feel bad for being afraid, however the more we can let go of these fears, the more anger we can also release. ohmmmmmmm…

I’m also thankful for my Mother, and Natalie

Writing Prompt taken from: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/11/daily-prompt-thanks/

Six of One, Half a Dozen of the Other

A six word story:

Anxiety now, chest cut next… LIVE.

How perfect that I fall victim to a writing prompt via wordpress. The irony is that I assign such work almost daily to my students.

More and more, I’ve been wishing that my surgery date was sooner. More irony. Previously I wished it away into the distant future. Now, i feel that the anxiety leading up to it must be worse than the surgery itself. The last part of the six word story is “LIVE“. I just want to put this behind me so I can get on with life. I am very excited about life ‘on the other side’. I plan on livin’.

Which leads me to a relevant lesson taught to me by a Bruce Lee JPG (click pic to read).

then die...

then die…

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/10/daily-prompt-six/